Well, I haven't actively been here for God knows how long.
Have you ever gotten to a point in your life where everything seems to be an epiphany but you seem to deny yourself those things which make you truly breathe? It seems like I've been on auto-pilot since September...and there is so much and yet so little it seems its hard for me to really get to the bottom of it. So I've been able to keep a high enough GPA in school to maintain my scholarship, I've met some people and let go of others. I've learned more about those corners of myself I leave alone unless I'm forced to. I will keep living in my mothers house until I find someone who I could actually stand to live beside as ever since my brother and his fiance moved out I've realized that I can't be truly Alone. I like to get away and be independent but still if I had my own place I would probably go crazy as I have been the few times that I was alone here with nothing productive to occupy myself (mind you my baby puppy girl is the only creature that's kept it from going overboard). Then today I wrote for the first time in well I can't even remember. And it was like being awakened from death. I've denied myself something so integral to myself...my various arts...to the point where I didn't realize they were gone. I don't even care if it's not one of my best works or any think like that. So much has happened and I wish I could share it properly with all of you, so much has evolved and I'm starting to know how beautiful everything is again. I'll still be so busy that people will wonder if I'm Human, but that's just part of me and I have no desire to change it. Long story short, I have to make sure to never stop this again and start those millions of projects I have in my head. If you all like them once they are done all the better, but in the end it is what it is and it's breathing again.
I hope you are all well and I miss so many of you dearly and hope some of you can forgive me for pulling a disappearing act as I am prone to do, especially when my life takes new turns.
Love,
Bettie

P.S. I will be adding some of my older art to my scraps as well as possibly digging up things which will be placed as seems appropriate.